The big C

Month of November 2007, I was diagnosed of breast-cancer. I was a few days before I travel to US.

So, I have to cancelled my trip and schedule for operation., so I stayed in the hospital for 20 days., had operations twice, removed the tumor., but the result of the second-operation was negative..then started my chemo on 15 of December., it was horrible moment of my life, and totally alone not even my son was there to give me warm-hand to say that operation was successfully over. I just had good nice girlfriends. Inspite, of my lonely days in the hospital, there are a lot of mobile-messages I received almost everyday from some special people in my life., unfornately, we both are in the hospital too., we just communicate thru telephone and handy calls.
The moment I hear him at the other side., I feel little bit better.

My Mum came on February 17, 2008..to take care of me..a helping hand. Mum stayed till my last chemo-therapy, (April 28; Mum went home). It was a great help for me,
she cooks what I wishes to eat after few days of suffering the side-effect of chemo., I used to asked her to cook 'Arroz caldo', with lemon, it gives a new appetite. I would like to thank my loving sister for sending Mum here, for she can not have a longer vacation only to take care of me, she need to work. It took me 38 days to finish my radiation therapy, almost everyday except weekend., then the final
control was Octber 21., and everything came out good., I was so happy this day! I started packing up my luggage for three months holiday in America.

With all my prayers, to extend my stay and a bit longer time to stay on earth was heard. For those who are having the same situation like me, I would advise to be
more closer to God, be optimistic, keep on reading books to give you moral-support.
And fight, don't give up. I almost gave-up on my second chemo, I thought it was my
last days...I felt so helpless and so weak. But with my fighting-spirit and faith in God, I am still here, New Me!

The Travel Bug

February of 2005 I joined a tour to Prague, new place and cultures. I frequently visited my sister in California, and cousins in Michigan and Arizona.

Through this travelling, had chance to meet someone nice, someone you can have a cup of tea during those lonely times in L.A., till now we keep in touch., so sad he lives in south of France, but he travels too often, right now he is in Manila, Philippines, for business. He invited me when I visit Manila one of this days, to have a cup of coffee at his new Condo at the Fort, Makati, Phils., how I really wish I can just travel that soon.

My Friend – the Snake

I met a woman with her daughter during the time Jens and I were strolling-around in the city of Büxtehude, Germany (north-part of Hamburg) and we became good friends for about a year, till I found out she got a relationship with my better-half.

My world was shaken, I lost a lot of weight, I could not sleep , nor eat, all I knew was I was always crying. I never thought it will also happened to me., for I even trusted her so much., and even invited on my 40th birthday celebration in Champ-Elyees, Paris, France... (Brazilian-buffet-dinner), we travelled all together to France. This philandering stage of my hubby lasted till 2002 till I decided to see my lawyer.

These was the beginning of my agony-in-the-new-bought-house., perhaps I can understand if I was replaced to a younger lady, single, without a child from another man, and not a 'friend' of mine. That really hurts me so much. Time heal all wounds.

At this moment of my life, I have to be far and forget than to be near and remember. So I moved here in Herford city (up-north) about 3 hours drive from my former-place., new place, new friends, and new excitements.

First three years, Jens was with me till he finished his grade school. But he is often sick and crying as well, for it was not easy for him about the new situation. Jens suffered so much., if I am not mistaken, till now he feels lost and depressed.

My “Life”… my Jens

August 12, 1994 ; 1:55 a.m. Jens-Christopher was born., My husband and my sister were with my the whole time I was having my labor till the Gyn decided to have caesarian-operation, while I lost the 'frucht-wasser' (amniotic fluid) . In few minutes, Jens-C came to the world...my first phrase I said was...'welcome to the world'..my sis can not forget that..., sometimes, she made jokes out of it.

My son Jens was baptized on my birthday, October 1, 1994., with lunch-buffet reception...a lot of food. My sister was one of the godmothers of Jens and few cousins in Michigan. Then sister went back home for she wanted to work, she was fresh-graduate of Bachelor of Science in Psychology and wanted to shape up her career. It was too sad for me., but having my baby, I tried to give my time and love to my family.

My better-half was really a great partner at the time and good father to my son., we often travel together specially when he got some conferences out-of-town, or whenever he have projects somewhere in Germany., we were always part of it. Jens started attending his kindergarden, enjoying those craft-works with other mothers, and afternoon-sport activities., tennis game, karate, swimming course, then as he grows old he love to play football (soccer in US)., till now. There was a year when went to my home-country for three months holiday with Jens., to see again his Grandma and aunt and uncle too., and we were suprisely-visited by my hubby., Jens can not believe that, he was so happy to see his 'papa' at granny's gate. Those were the happy days.

Jens started his school-grade., that was the time, my hubby was having a project in Hamburg for Airbus company., sometime of 2000, after our millinuim celebration in Paris, France., then my hubby would suggest to take the first-class train from Köln to Hamburg and he will meet us there for few days break for us and join him there. It was such an experience.

The Knight in Shining Armor… or so I thought

Summer of 1990, I met someone I used to love... huh! Our first-date was a trip in Luxembourg, we had ice-cream, it was hot-summer day, with our friends Cristy and Peter., (they were the one who introduced me to him)

We got married after a year of getting to know each other. We went to my home-country for 7 weeks honeymoon in the famous Boracay Island. Then we stopped for a few days in Bangkok, Thailand; then went back to our love-nest in Cologne city.

On our first wedding-anniversary, he gave me four-weeks trip to New York City, visiting
my relatives, (Mum's side) spending Christmas in Tenesse, Chattanoga. then back to Connecticut. and spend our first New Year on the plane going back to Germany.

My better-half loves to drive specially when I have visitors., for him driving from
Köln to Paris is absolutely nothing. I appreciated it. When Mum was with us the first time, we drove to Paris for a week holiday, visited Baneaux Apparition in Belguim. Tour her around the neighbouring-city like Monschau., Mum enjoyed.

There was a year when we were twice in the US, summer and then christmas...We were
stranded by a strong-strom in Chicago, Hilton Hotel going back to Germany. I can still remember those happy moments with him.

Those travelling....going to Lucerne, Switzerland, Austria, was just our spring-holiday., just the two of us.

When I turned forty-years old, he gave me two-round-trip-ticket to San Francisco with hotel accomodation for me and my son.Aside from dinner-for-six-persons in Champ-Elysee in Paris, France.

He showed me the world!

Life is what we make it......

'Life is what we make it...' as my dad used to tell us when we were still young.

My name is Jennifer Theresa B. Gavar, friends calls me 'jennie'., I relocated here in Germany in the year of 1987...I was just27 yrs. old and scouting for greener pastures, looking for better life and new love life... In my single days... I started travelling visiting my friend in Paris, experiencing 'Bastille Fete', and birthday of my girlfriend... it was so nice and exciting experiences for me to be here, though I had difficulties in adjusting from lifestyle, language barrier and cultures... but as time goes on I've learned and willing to learn, integrate myself in the Deutsche-Leute (german-people), for me to easily adapt and practice the new language for me.